So why this?

So I’ve been asking myself, “so why the hell am I doing this?!” And maybe it’s partly because I’ve been cooped up in the house for over a month and a half but I think ultimately it’s to create a platform where I can discuss things that I’ve done that have worked for me or that I think are interesting. And ultimately I hope it creates some dialogue with other people. Even if it is just family members who read these things.

For quite some time I have battled issues with depression and anxiety. And because I apparently was “high-functioning” I never really thought about it or just thought that maybe I wasn’t an overtly happy person. It wasn’t until I threw in the stress of starting my own business where the scales tipped, and not in my favor. I quickly found myself spiraling, drinking every night, feeling the constant darkness surrounding me and not finding any enjoyment from anything. It took me a looooong time to get out of that hole. Much longer than I ever thought it would take. And it took a TON of help. I saw a therapist regularly, a psychiatrist, started taking medications (which I still take to this day) and had the unwavering support of my wife. It was a shitload of work. At times I didn’t think that I would ever get back to any semblance of my old self.

I am so glad that I stuck it out because even though I’m not the most “happy-go-lucky” person in the world, I am at a point in my life where I am enjoying myself again. A lot of help came not only from the sources that I listed above but also self-reflection, taking better care of myself, and just putting in the work.

So, whoever you are, let’s get ready to discuss some stuff! I’m looking forward to more rambling about things that helped me, garage gyms, meditation, who knows what else. Till next time.